Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Trusting

Today is the day. At 2:45 on the dot, I will be sitting down to an hour long mid-term exam in my Spanish classroom. In fact, I should be studying for it now. I just had to ask for some support before I go for it. At this point I'll be happy to get a C. But anything higher will be much appreciated. Wait a minute, sounds like I'm puting in an order to a catalogue company!

Just pray if you please. If you happen to think of me, just pray. One truth that has really come to bear upon me in the past weeks: no matter how long and hard I study, no matter how hard I try in the "hour of trial", I would always fail if it weren't God who was allowing my brain to work in a sufficiently logical and clear manner. If He wasn't calming my anxiety every time I sit down to an exam, I would be on the verge of depression by this point. He's teaching me to trust Him, like I've never had to trust Him before. Praise the Lord!

Today will be a momentous challenge, so please pray with me. God will hear, and work all things to His glory and my good. That's more than I could ever hope for otherwise.

Thank you my friends, and go with God!

17 comments:

Kristi said...

You've got it Beka! I shall be thinking of you and praying for you often today.
Lean hard on God my friend!

Joshua said...

Praying...

Kristi said...

Me too....

Rebekah said...

Thank you! Appreciated mucho I assure you!! I believe it went well. I have the satisfaction of knowing that I did the best that I could (at least the best that I think I could). God has been faithful every time--continues to be faithful...why do I ever doubt?

Crystal said...

hope it went well...let us know!

Anonymous said...

Hey Bek...hope your mid-term went well, I know how stressful it can be 'cause i just finished up a week of midterms...anyways, hope you did well and hope you can come to the Talent night on Nov.11th!

hopeful said...

Well, I'm a day and a half too late to pray for you, but do know that if I weren't a day and a half late I would be praying for you. :-)

When I was in college, I prayed for clarity of thought before exams. It really doesn't matter how much you know if you can't remember it at just the right time! I don't know what I would have done without God. Well, yes I do. Nothing!

Gloria said...

I read this to late to pray or encourge you. *sorry* But please tell me, what was your final score?
*crossingmyfingers*

La*Oriente said...

You were totally right Beka about what you said yesterday. I visited it and it was soooo.....I can't even describe it.

Rebekah said...

Thanks Jenna. I was never in doubt that my opinion was indeed correct in this matter, but it is simply wonderful to know that I have some support out there. I don't believe I was too mean--what do you think?

CelloChic said...

Hope you did okay. You must be pretty good at Spanish...you seem to know your numbers well (as in last Fem. Frills post).

La*Oriente said...

Of course I believed you were right, but what suprised me was how mild a picture I had painted in my mind in comparison to the bizarre reality. You were anything but mean; quite diplomatic lol.

Gloria said...

Saying the numbers in spanish the eastiest part. At least for me it was.

Crystal said...

Ok Rebekah it's time for another post about something...tell us how you did on the Spanish test, your slave bond that you formed with Kristi last weekend, anything!

Rebekah said...

Sunshine:

"Those without God can do very well in the test, are you saying that you are less capable and God actively has to bring you up to their level?"

No. I am sorry if I failed to make my meaning clear. In truth, in a moment by moment, second by second deal, I need God to keep me breathing, my heart beating, blood circulating through my veins. If God wasn't upholding me and millions of others all around the world...we would cease to exist. That is what I mean. That we are all so totally dependent on God for everything we need, that we can't even continue existing without His upholding hand. And that is why I said:

"no matter how long and hard I study...I would always fail if it weren't God who was allowing my brain to work in a sufficiently logical and clear manner."

You said:
"I think God's part in your process was giving you a brain in the first place, not maintaining it."

So in your opinion, we go about our lives, and its mere luck that most of us manage to escape disease and horrible accidents. God just created the world with His "intelligent design" and then left it to work out world history for itself. Like a wind-up alarm clock. As soon as the globe winds down to die, He'll finally step in?

I suppose if I believed that, then I would have to believe that every baby that is born in not directly created by God in His image, but just a product again, of his "intelligent design" working independently.

I may be taking your statement much farther than intended--if I need correcting, then by all means correct me.

Mike said...

Come on now, at least, if nothing else post about a new test or something. ANYTHING!

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